March 2009: After Shawn proposed alot of people went from asking "When are you getting engaged" to "when are you getting married" and some even asked, "after you get married when are you having babies". It was alot of questions but ones I had already been asking myself. Since learning at an early age I already had PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) and would most likely have fertility issues, it scared me a little when one day I thought "what if we get married and can't get pregnant on our own".
April 2009: Being the worry wart that I am, I made an appt with the OB/GYN to ask questions, do the yearly exam etc.. I wanted to know how things had progressed and what we were looking at so Shawn and I could talk about it before getting further in the wedding planning. Granted, I knew no matter what the outcome that Shawn loves me unconditionally and that possibly facing infertility wouldnt change the way he felt. BUT, we had always talked about having our own children and I wanted him to know that I wasnt keeping any info from him or misleading him in anyway. So the appt comes and goes, I ask all my questions, she runs some tests and tells me she'll call me with the results. A week goes by and I get "the call". I was so upset.
The tests came back that my cysts had multiplied and that further testing would be needed before being able to really go in detail about what we were facing. She wanted us to talk it over decide where we stood and get back with her. Shawn and I talked and decided that we would keep planning the wedding, and after that then we would go from there, since we weren't at the point where we wanted to make any definitive plans for having a baby. One step at a time.... but all along, in the back of my mind I wondered if we'll get to have our own baby.
1 Year later:
Our wedding day came, April 3, 2010. It was everything that I dreamed of; everything that mattered came together beautifully, thanks to my amazing husband, wonderful parents, in laws and fabulous friends! We weren't even back from our Honeymoon when I got an email telling us congrats and wanting to know when we were going to start a family, lol!
We got back to our routine and it was the middle of June 2010 and I was out and about and saw this little girl. She was absolutely gorgeous! Porcelain skin, gorgeous red curly hair and brilliant blue eyes. My heart sank, I realized I had baby fever. I've always dreamed of having a little girl with curly red hair and blue eyes and seeing her just made me really want to know what I was going to face when we were ready to have a baby.
And so it begins.......
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